I need to vent, I know that noone really cares but here it goes

My nightmare started 11 years ago. When I decided my kids and myself needed a better life. I took my children and filed for divorce and custody. When I went to court my now ex was on the stand crying the judge started handing her tissues while she never cheated on me the guy who spent the weekend there while I was out of town, she didn't know. Just some stranger who claimed he was a friend of mine and I said he could stay there for a few days. So she let him sleep on the couch.

Then how I refused to let her work, and I kept a tight reign on her. So after I spent 4 hours on the stand, explaining the constant drugs, men, and screaming how I decided to take the kids and just leave. The judge awarded my ex custody of the children, and then set my child support at $1,400 a month. which I was shocked since at that time my take home was only $1,200 a month. The first month my check each week was N/A, in which still put me behind on my child support. My company went to their lawyers for me, and found it was illegal to take 100% of a paycheck. So I started getting $90 a week which I started getting farther behind on child support

Spent over a year living on romaine noodles fighting with landlords, light company, gas company, and the telephone company. Many times would sit at home in the dark wrapped up ina blanket and dodging the landlord. The one evening a week where I would get the kids I would try to go down to a store get 3 chili dogs for a dollar. It seem like every time I would go by and pickup the kids my ex would have a bofriend over and they would be out grilling steaks, drinking beer, and smoking cigerattes. Would go home eat my package of 10 cent noodles.

After over a year of this decided to move out to California to restart my life over, decided to try for custody one more time, This time the court assigned them thier own attorney. She came and interviewed me. Well when it came time for court the kids attorney sent in letter stating how she thinks I am a good influence on the kids, even though my ex had remarried and that her new husband just got out of prison sering 10 years in prison. An admitted alcoholic, no job or any desire to get one. Her statement word for word "is that he is still just their step dad, he is nothing more than a piece of furniture in the background and that the kids should stay with their mom".

Went 4 years without seeing my kids refusing to put them on the plane even went through several months wasn't allowed to talk to them on the phone since they were grounded, from talking to their father

So after another go around in court guess my reward was to reduce child support down to $595 a month. So now 3 years later and a bout with MS and having to go on SSDI siting in a wheelchair the state nabbed my SSDI check for $300 for back child support. Talked to the child support office last friday to see how much more do I owe.. They said I would be caught up, when the subject of getting my child support reduced, told that my daughter was already taken off when she joined the service, and since my son gets a check every month from social security for $750 a month. Then I asked when that stops because he would graduate from high school. Her reply that the state would start taking $595 a month from my SSDI check

So basically 11 years later my nightmare is still here